Tuesday | October 16, 2007

Letter to Ashley

Wrote this on Oct.11th


Hey, What's ^ with you? I can't sleep. Got up to potty and can't fall back asleep. I keep thinking back to when we were little, where nothing seemed to matter but the newest toys & games. Where we were never stressed or trying to grow up.
I could really use my best friend now. I'm pulling my friend card out. I guess I just really miss you. I miss us hanging out & talking all the time. Living only 2 blocks away, seeing your house from my backyard... at least until they built that damn house.
I miss our jokes and made up words, dancing crazy like there was no tomorrow. I could go for a famous m&m cookie. I miss knowing you have my back, are there whenever I need someone. I miss going to Mark's, all of us hanging out. Remember when the boys (Mark & Seth) were trying to teach you to skateboard? You were so scared you'd fall. Or us hanging out in Jay's basement just talking. I miss him, I will ALWAYS miss him. Life used to be so simple.
Why can't it be anymore? It's just so... complicated. We grew up thinking it would be always be simple. How's the baby? You're gonna have to lock him up to keep away all the girls. Haha. Princess is attacking my face. How can something so simple make you laugh? Well, I'm gonna go. Miss you bestie!

Alexy♥
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Monday | October 15, 2007

So much has happened

I moved out of my dad's house and in with Curt. I couldn't take the abuse anymore. It was verbal and escalated into psyhical. He grabbed my wrists so hard that they still hurt. It has been 3 days. 3 wonderful days since I have left. I'm much happier. Even Curt says he's never seen me this happy and we've been together almost 13 months! Tomorrow we are going to see his nephew and sister then go to his parents house. Then on Wednesday we are going back to Dad's for Billy and the rest of my stuff. I really don't want to go into any more detail about what had happened. I've re-lived it enough times. The day I left, I applied for a job. The manager said she will call me next week. So I'm sure I got it. I will be working graveyard and I'm actually really excited about it. I love living here. I dont have to worry about trying to be perfect because I'm perfect the way I am. I think of this as a new start in life. Starting over and being n conrol of my own life. He had no right to grab me the way he did. I mean I'm 19 now and thats assult. I decided not to press charges as it would be a waste of my time and nothing good would come out of it. I just wanted to get away from all of that.
He used to make me suicidal. I would literally think to myself "I shouldn't have ever been born" I know for sure I will never treat my kids the way he treated me. He needs mental help and help with his anger. I just thought I'd update everyone with what has been going on. Have a good day and night =)


~Alexy~
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